Who You'd Be Today

First of all let me say sorry for being M.I.A. I have been so busy moving, unpacking, working, being mom, baseball and having a new man that it's been hard to do anything, even sleep.  This mama's exhausted! Not to mention this is a horrible time of year for me.

*Warning there may be some pictures in this post that may disturb some, to me they are one of the most special things I will ever own.

Dear McKennon,

Today you would have been 2 years old. 

You would have been walking and trying to talk,

You would have been running around bumping your head and giving me a heart attack,

You would have been terrorizing Marcus, trying to be just like him,

I would be fantasizing about the kind of kid you will become

Would you be loud and ornery?

Shy and quiet?

Would you be saying full sentences right now?

Your grandparents would be spoiling you rotten every chance they got,

So many things in my life would be different.

You aren't any of these things. You are up in Heaven making sure I catch that beautiful sunset, taking the time to enjoy it.  Thinking of you in everything I do.  Wishing I was changing diapers and chasing you around.
Cuddling up with you reading a book. 

I miss you every second of everyday.  To say that it gets easier day by day is a lie.  It doesn't get easier but I have become more accepting.  You aren't coming back and there is nothing that can be done about it so I look at these pictures and get to remember spending just that very short amount holding you.

I know I will see you again someday and that will be the happiest moment of my life. I love you with all of my heart and there won't ever be a day that you aren't on my mind. Happy Birthday My Angel!

P.S. Happy Mother's Day to all you beautiful Moms! Take the time to give your kids extra hugs and kisses this weekend.  Life is too precious to miss any of it!